Baked Witch

My blog is a bit controversial for many reasons.

I get the little bubble that says someone viewed or liked – I figured I should give insight to why I am in such a detrimental state of mind…..

About 2 years ago, I was cheated on. My world crashed. I wanted to hang myself – I felt that alone.

During this time, I experienced unrelated emotional abuse and domestic violence nearly every day. Before work, sometimes during, and after work.

My managers began the paper trail, so they could protect themselves once my insanity inevitably lost me my job. The best job I have ever had.

Final thread that untied my brain – I met a guy, briefly dated him, then he began to stalk me compulsively. He knew my schedule, and would make appearances right on time to see me driving home.

Being stalked was crippling. I was emotionally destitute. I remember one day I spent it sitting in one single spot, barely moving. Until daylight became night. I never once moved to turn a light on.

The domestic violence at home continued. It peaked and peaked over and over.

I became so mentally unwell that I got myself fired.

They denied me unemployment….

I made a wish, convinced I was going to be murdered by my stalker – that I’d find my soulmate first.

My wish seemed to come true. I met Matthew.

We fell in love. Then it all burned down.

Recently, the clinic I can “afford” removed their psychiatry services, so I will be off medication.

I am not going to hurt myself…. I know everyone in life has their problems and mine aren’t special.

But this is how I ended up so absolutely broken.

Maybe I earned the bad karma somehow. If that is the case, so be it. I will continue to try my best to correct this bad luck, or bad karma….